Circa Sixten Oh!nine Part II (Annual Poetry)

A date imprinted on my mind with ink..and it gets more toxic everytime that i think

This is really real.

This is what it seems.!

Pinch yourself for proof,

..What i say is what i mean

This is two years of emotion packed into a single seam

But if you rip the fabric it'll shatter into dreams

My heart is in my hand

..And this date is on my sleeve

So you can see it easy

Everything is whats percieved

Im standing with a hammer yelling:

"Who else wants to leave.!"

If someone answers back then ill prolly take a swing

..a swing at my hand

But yall dont understand

Metaphors and similies don't always seem to land

As the hourglass erases every single spec of sand

Im staring in the air looking at my ceiling fan

Time is so stupid -__-

..You can call it 'trash'

The only thing thats 'wasted' when you smile or when you laugh

The past was just a failure that i never thought id have

And everyday i think about what i couldve had

..I couldve had you

But now im just harrassed

Haunted by these thoughts, I hear skitzophrenic laughs

As the voices whisper loudly that ill 'get another chance'

But they can keep on lying because they dont know the half

They dont know my future was determined by my past

..They dont know youre presence was a present that i had

Watching drama on these monitors and screens they seem to have

But there the mono's muted so the storyline is halfed

There's no hope for our future

..My mentors told me that

The three of them console me at meeting that we have

I told them it could work..and yet they beat me with their wrath

So im humbled,and im stumbled from the dreams i used to have

The benders on his way

So run your race with haste

..for 'that which is crooked can never be made strait'

And anything in ink can never be erased

So i jot this down with pen just to show you its not..fake

~wind blows.!

Another year adds just another dead memory

..a portrait in my mind with alyZ as the centerpiece

..gold chain jewelry and alaN to the left of me

...I failed a women once so the next will get the best of me

..yea, but who can get the best of me.?